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How Reiki Changed Me

Writer's picture: Ren Ren

Updated: Oct 16, 2024

A few years ago I was in the darkest period of my life. I was diagnosed with 3 Autoimmune Diseases before and during the pandemic. I lost my mom to cancer. I was deep in the throws of family and career stress, feeling doubts about my life purpose, and despite my best efforts, was unable to resolve a custody matter. I was making a good income but was unable to save up money and get to a comfortable spot. My energy level was so low that I would roll out of bed to sit on Tele Health with a client or two and roll back into bed. I had no energy. I lost my passion and my enthusiasm for life. I was in pain and my left eye was bulging, an obvious sign of Thyroid Eye Disease. I didn't know who I was anymore and felt confused about what to do next. I knew I could not go on this way for long. My doctors were doing their best but eventually I heard, "you know, there's really not much else for us to do here. We have you on the highest amount of thyroid medication we can. This might just be how your quality of life is." No. I won't accept that, I thought to myself. So I did the things I could do, such as quitting alcohol, caffeine, processed sugar, gluten, and a lot of dairy. I found a surgeon to fix my eye and looked much better after 4 separate surgeries. I felt a bit better overall but not good enough for my early 40s. I was still young!


I researched alternative medicine and came upon Reiki Energy Healing. I was always struck by Nikola Tesla's assertion that everything is energy, frequency and vibration. This resonated with me on a deep level because although I was not someone who went to church regularly, my inner knowing was certain that there is more to life than what I can see with my physical eyes. I felt a connection to the earth, plants, trees, animals and other people. I felt that link or that thread of light between us. So what is Reiki? It is a Japanese healing technique which uses the universal energy, that golden thread of pure energy between us, to promote healing and relaxation. The energy is intelligent and flows on its own from the practitioner who has been attuned to the specific frequency. I hear that Reiki is like receiving an internal hug or like receiving a massage for your energy body. I would come to a Reiki session feeling scattered, anxious, busy and stressed and leave feeling relaxed, capable and whole.


I felt tentative at first about studying Reiki because I had a powerful inner critic at the time. I was not kind to myself about my diagnoses or about the stressful life situations I was trying to navigate. I wanted to be good at things immediately or felt like quitting. I decided in order to know if Reiki could work for me, I would need to change my mindset. I was determined to silence my inner critic, take my time and move forward with curiosity and not with judgment. My Reiki mentor let me know that it was okay to feel or not to feel anything in my body that I was intending to heal with Reiki. Reiki knows what to do, she said. Reiki is a loving energy and could never hurt me or anyone else which also felt comforting. If someone I send Reiki energy to doesn't want to receive it, the energy simply would not go to them.


I enjoyed learning about the history of Reiki lineages and hearing about how people allowed the energy to flow through their eyes, hands and hearts to help other people, animals and the earth. I enjoyed utilizing the energy when I would come upon animals in nature and learned that channeling the energy across any distance did not make it any less powerful. Since everything is energy, time and space do not really matter when working with Reiki energy. An early client of mine was at home relaxing when I began a distant Reiki session from my healing room and he reported feeling an intense burst of loving energy in his chest, followed by deep relaxation. I was overjoyed that this energy has so many uses.

The more I practiced, the more I healed, the more energy I had, the more hope I found. The energy was teaching me to be patient and kind to myself, to focus love energy in the parts of my body that needed healing, and to let go of controlling the outcome. I would simply allow it to work and it did. I started to exercise and to get back out into the world with my natural positive outlook. I no longer felt pain in my hips, back and neck, which felt like a miracle. When a new pain would come up, I would utilize the energy and be patient until I understood it and it went away.


The thing I love the most about learning and now teaching Reiki is that it helped me to unlearn negative patterns and to embrace my authentic self. My worries and ruminations are fewer and farther between. I do not let my critical mind run the show and I have a more loving and compassionate inner voice that takes the lead. I open to life changes with curiosity instead of fear. I feel more relaxed, both in public and in private. I remember that I have all of the tools for connection inside of me and I release thoughts of separation or scarcity. I am kind to myself when I feel emotions and allow myself to feel and to understand them. Maybe the best part of all of it is that I wake up in the morning with more anticipation of good things coming my way, of connection, finding solutions and of joy. Reiki has been a constant companion, uplifting me when I feel down. I use it with gratitude and hope that other people will benefit from learning it, too. If you are curious or feel drawn to experiencing a session or taking the classes, please feel free to reach out to me for more information: Ren@6rayhealing.com





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